i m not sure when i felt it very first time.but one least recently incident i remember is ...when i visted my very fist school in which i studied upto fifth standard after a long duration when i was studing in graduation i felt like i was seeing this place very first time and had not been there before that day.it was not too easy for me to believe that i had been thare for five long year . visited that place daily as a student played with friends , attended classes and all.but now often i notice that whenever i think abt any passed moment i feel like it is just one story and ihave never lived it in real.and that feeling is slowly slowly going to become a problem for me coz it always makes me to feel like all the life i have spent is a lie nothing else and each incoming moment will going to become the same and i have nothing real in my hands neither the past nor the present and not the future.

two lines just to addup....

kudrat bhi karti hai mere sath kya ajeeb mazak

mujhe woh sab baksti hai jiski mujhe chah nahi.

finally two lines for my mother............

tere bad koun hotoin se apne

wakte ruksat mere mathe pe dua likhega???????????????

                                                                ANJALI