i m leaving anjali.....he was talking to me....i donot think  we can  have a good life together. i think she does not love me.she can not love anybody. inother words she does not deserve true love.

no plz donot misunderstand her.........i wanted to say plz donot hate her............but couldnot say .......i felt like my tongue was not helping me to speak...........and he left  leaving me behind with the fact which he will never know............ 

She tried hard but unable to remember even a single occasion when she asked for something to that man (her father) and he would have denied. But she can easily remember lots of moments when she convinced him for giving permissions to her or to his brother  for something about which no one other than her can ever get success to make him agreed. Every one without any question agree that her father loves her more than any other father in the world do.

        Anjali  will u allow me to stay with u  at  ur room ?????(where I live at rent.)

         But why?????? I asked ……..u r  having ur own house in the same  city????

     I do not like to be at home. She said with a voice very tired very shattered.

I felt pity for her. Coz  no one other than me knows that she is so emotional. So alone so shattered so good but so sad.

Her  shown personality always proved her a girl with jolly nature ,who always smiles ,can search fun in each event,away from the real picture of life full of sorrow grief and tears.but that was not true and I knew that. I know that though her face always smiles but her heart never does the same. And it is  more painful than any other pain to keep a smile on ur face when ur heart is crying.

Why ???????i  asked.

I hate my father anjali………..i hate him……….tears in her eyes ..noone can ever believe  that she can ever cry for anything .i thought.       

                                                                                  to be continu........

i m not sure when i felt it very first time.but one least recently incident i remember is ...when i visted my very fist school in which i studied upto fifth standard after a long duration when i was studing in graduation i felt like i was seeing this place very first time and had not been there before that day.it was not too easy for me to believe that i had been thare for five long year . visited that place daily as a student played with friends , attended classes and all.but now often i notice that whenever i think abt any passed moment i feel like it is just one story and ihave never lived it in real.and that feeling is slowly slowly going to become a problem for me coz it always makes me to feel like all the life i have spent is a lie nothing else and each incoming moment will going to become the same and i have nothing real in my hands neither the past nor the present and not the future.

two lines just to addup....

kudrat bhi karti hai mere sath kya ajeeb mazak

mujhe woh sab baksti hai jiski mujhe chah nahi.

finally two lines for my mother............

tere bad koun hotoin se apne

wakte ruksat mere mathe pe dua likhega???????????????

                                                                ANJALI

You r just doing injustice with you. Just try to forget all these memories which can do nothing but hurt u. just forget all about.. ….i told her half heartedly and for shake of telling only. As I was not sure if it was possible to her to forget all  these times and incidents which  changed her whole personality and behaviour and thoughts and nature and  all  ………….. before that I never believed  that one can get  such drastic change due to any reason.  She  was a totally new person  for me today though I am with her  from the first day of my life which I can remember.   Though her new form was more cute , more loving more mature…….but some thing was missing………..her carefree laughter.         The shine in her eyes……….still she laughs but  not straight  from  heart.   I can  feel   that  though she  always try to hide

                   I m trying my best but it does not work at all. Ok u tell me how  can I do that……..

Just try to keep urself bisy with  other thins. Again I told but was not sure.      Whether it will work or not……….

Aaj main kush hun anjali…….she was telling to me………..

 Kyon????????

Maine sab kuch bhula diya yaar………

Accha…….good.

Pata hai pahale main har moment use yaad karti thi na…she told  me  with heavy voice…I was sure…tears were there in her eyes.  Though I was not looking at her…* *  now every moment I make sure to my self that I will not miss him.…..

Has she really  has forgotten him. Or  will she ever  can do it………………I was thinking……………

Who knows………..  but I know it  becomes more difficult  as though she is dear to me but he also was always right.

                                                                                     anjali

You r just doing injustice with you. Just try to forget all these memories which can do nothing but hurt u. just forget all about.. ….i told her half heartedly and for shake of telling only. As I was not sure if it was possible to her to forget all  these times and incidents which  changed her whole personality and behaviour and thoughts and nature and  all  ………….. before that I never believed  that one can get  such drastic change due to any reason.  She  was a totally new person  for me today though I am with her  from the first day of my life which I can remember.   Though her new form was more cute , more loving more mature…….but some thing was missing………..her carefree laughter.         The shine in her eyes……….still she laughs but  not straight  from  heart.   I can  feel   that  though she  always try to hide

                   I m trying my best but it does not work at all. Ok u tell me how  can I do that……..

Just try to keep urself bisy with  other thins. Again I told but was not sure.      Whether it will work or not……….

Aaj main kush hun anjali…….she was telling to me………..

 Kyon????????

Maine sab kuch bhula diya yaar………

Accha…….good.

Pata hai pahale main har moment use yaad karti thi na…she told  me  with heavy voice…I was sure…tears were there in her eyes.  Though I was not looking at her…* *  now every moment I make sure to my self that I will not miss him.…..

Has she really  has forgotten him. Or  will she ever  can do it………………I was thinking……………

Who knows………..  but I know it  becomes more difficult  as though she is dear to me but he also was always right.

                                                                               anjali

Some of  them are really cute

Some of them are well mannered.

Some of them  are always  pretending to listen you attentionaly

Some of them are actually doing the same.

Some of them are actually having respect and love for me in their heart,

Some of them are just pretending to have the same.

Some of them are always make smiling face when ever I  look towards them,

Some of them always give a tired response becoz of my presence,

Some of them are actually sincere,

Some of them are really mischief,

Some of them try to impress me,

Some of them some time try to irritate me

Some of them are very  regular

Some of them are always late(hamesha ek hi bahana  … bike kharab ho gayi raste main)

Most of them make an innocent face when ever I scold them,

Only some of them try to justify themselves.

Many other categories  are  there   ............. 

Though I never told to them …..

All of them are dear to me…………

Yes I really love my students…………..

                           ANJALI

 Bewde Zameen Par...!!
EVERY GLASS IS SPECIAL..... !!

Main Kabhi Batlata Nahin
Bar main dailyy jaata Hoon Main Maa ...
Yun To Main,Dikhlata Nahin
Daru peekar roz aata hun Main Maa ....
Tujhe Sab Hai Pata, Hain Na Maa...
Tujhe Sab Hai Pata, Meri Maa...

Theke pe Yun Na Chhoro Mujhe ,
Ghar Laut Ke Bhi Aa Naa Paoon Main Maa...
Pau lene Bhej Na Itna Door Mujko Tu,
Ghar bhi bhool jaun main Maa...
Kya Itna Bura Hoon Main Maa...
Kya Itna Bura...Meri Maa..

Scotch main ,itna peeta nahi,
Peg Se Seham Jaata Hoon Main Maa  
Chehre Pe Aane Deta Nahin
Lekin kabhi ludak jaata Hoon Main Maa
Tujhe Sab Hai Pata...Hai Naa Maa
Tujhe Sab Hai Pata, Meri Maa .

Phir jindagi ki film mukamal na ho saki,

Who scene cut gaya  jo kahani ki jaan tha.

Khub hans leta hun  bazme dosta  main  bhaith  kar,

Kabhi  kabhi  yun bhi  khud ko saza deta hun main..

Ishaq ne sikh hi li waqt ki tasleem  ,

Ki ab woh mujhe yaad to ata hai par kam ke bad.

 AISE BHI HOTA HAI ........... KABHI KABHI.......

Bus yahi soch kar zuda kar diya dil se tera khayal ,

Tu hasin hai to tera aashiq  bhi accha chahiye.

...........................ANJALI................. 

when the presence of someone feels like the lack of oxygen around you. it means u really hate that person.............................................

wish u a world free from hate.

ANJALI

Isse pahale ki bewafa ho jaye

Kyon na e dost hum zuda ho zaye.

The following lines are dedicated to  all  who did hurt me most…..

Tanhaiyon par yadon ka ek silsila rah jayega,

Laut jayenge parinde ghosala rah jayega,

Tum bhale hi band kar lena meri yadon ka ghar,

Ek roshandan phir bhi adhkhula rah jayega,

Phir basa lega  woh  panchhi apna ghar kahi,

Pas uske bacha agar kuch hosala rah jayega,

Kis tarah ji rahe hai hum jan loge dekh kar,

Khat agar hamara koi adhjala rah jayega.

nice lines by someone (sometime i think how one writes so nice lines)

ANJALI

If u want to check how u r going with ur relations. Then just notice how much u laugh when together. Coz  when things become worse in any relation  laughter is the first thing  which disappears……………….

     stolen these lines from a book

         ANJALI